I recently went to a respite house for people with mental problems. I stayed there for about three days. I descovered I have far more mental problems that I thought and I am scared. I hope I get over them. Sorry for saying all that crap on the coffee pot. I think someone gave me a link to a TCA members forum board so I guess I’ll try that board (don’t know if I actually will). I guess I blew it on here, sorry for being so wierd on here. I just tried to fit in a little too hard. Sorry for the random posts on the coffee pot, but I would just post a message on there and forget about it for alittle while and see if anyone responded to it. I come here to talk about trains and nothing else so I got bored reading the coffee pot posts that didn’t have anything to do with trains. Thanks for the top 5 postwar engines thread, I enjoyed it. I wish I was as cool as you guys on this forum.
A lot of people misunderstand the pot, it is a place where we are able to talk about family things and everyday events. Of course trains are part of it but its a family affair from all over the world. not blood family but brothers and sisters with a common interest. trains. and of course grits for the chief. see what I’m saying is don’t be uptight here stay loose and you can fit in. as for train topics there are a lot of them off the “pot”. we just relax and pester each other. thats the game plan.
Ditto!
Berk765;
I wrote on one of the other posts a few nights ago about prayers for you.They do work and apparently did work!!! Sir James will back me up on that. Keep posting about trains and life in general. We are here as family to help in whatever way we can!!!
Thanks. I guess prayers do work. I did get a part time job helping a guy cut people’s yards. I wish I didn’t attempt suicide because I only hurt my family. It’s funny, when I was driving my car to the place where I was going to attempt it, Hell’s Bells by AC/DC came on the radio. I know this sounds crazy, but I guess god was trying to convince me not to do it. I guess he was saying I would go to Hell if I did it. Right before I tried the attempt, I said to myself, “God please help me.” When I felt the hose pipe to see if I could feel any exhaust coming out I felt none!!! I got out of the car, and checked if the hose pipe was still attached to the exhaust pipe and it was attached. I said this is not going to work, so I drove back home.
Later that day, I intentionally overdosed on prosac medicine, I took about 11 pills at once. I told my dad and excepted the consequences of my actions. He called the ambulance and they took me to the hospital. I was in the hospital’s emergancy room till about 1:00 AM and they sent me back home. I was blessed with a good family that really cares about me, I just didn’t realize it. I thought I was worthless and didn’t fit in with any of them, because I didn’t talk much to them and just felt left out. So anyway, I guess I will try to face my ambarrassing problems(easier said than done), and hopely I will overcome them and realize that I am an ok guy. I wish I could have named myself SouthernRR4501, but Berk765 sounds cooler. Hahahaha[swg]
Berk,
Sorry to hear you are in distress.
Just try to stay cool, put your feet up and coast for a while (ie-take a deep breath, relax, take it as it comes, and don’t over think it for a while). I also found the ‘top 5 postwar’ an enjoyable forum.
ps- I don’t read the coffee pot frequently.
runtime
Hang in tHere. its darkest rightbefore the dawn and all that rot. sometimes you have to hit bottom, to know which way is up.
Hi!
Hey, hang in there! Recognizing that you do have problems - and we ALL do - is a very important first step to getting better.
You know, a lot of times I have written letters to my adult kids, or written postings on this and another forum that were serious in nature.
The good news is that I held off in sending them, and then re-read them later. A high percentage of them were then erased by me - for I realized I was going overboard. Funny thing, even though they weren’t sent, I felt better just putting my thought down “on paper”.
Please keep up the fight, and may the Good Lord watch over you!!!
Mobilman44
Hello Berk!
I hope you get better soon. I sent an e-mail to you. Take Care & I’ll talk to you later.
Regards
Keith
Sorry to hear about your distress. Like it was said before its time to put your feet up and run some trains. I know when I get to my wits end, 30 minutes of running trains tends to clear my mind and put a new lease on life, the ole noodle works in strange ways, but a relaxing time with trains seems to put things straight
A mental health physician can find mental disorder in just about anyone so don’t take it too seriously. Just stay away from grits and you will maintain your sanity.
Don’t worry about not fitting in at the Coffee Pot thread. I tried it and didn’t care for it either. If you ticked some folks off, don’t worry about that either. I would guess there is a whole clique of people on this forum that hate my guts. And there are probably just as many that like me and what I post. You can’t please everyone, so don’t even try. Just be yourself is all. For what it’s worth, I enjoy your posts [:D][tup]
Dep
Hey Berk,
Be cool, dude. My daughter was a cutter, od’d on some pills, the routine. That was rock bottom. She got some help and she is coping much better. there are times when things don’t look so good, but we talk and she moves on. BTW, she’s now 16. Had problems when she was 13. Pour yourself into a hobby/cause or whatever and occupy your time. Come back here and talk/post. Nobody will turn you away.
Rich
Berk,
I am truly sorry to hear of what you are going through. I have been battling small amounts of depresion myself lately. Not even running the trains helps sometimes - they used to be my escape. From the replies to your post, you have a lot of friends here. I would like to include myself, if I may. We Berkshire fans have to stick together, right?? Lima Superpower all the way!! Hang in there…
Berk
Dont feel isolated. It isnt as though any of us havent said things we realise in retrospect was an error without the compelling cause you mentioned. I have battled depression on and off my entire life. Any time you want to j… e mail me. Any coffee thats been on the stove for four years is an anomaly . My best advice…Dont look back.
Yeah I’m a Berkshire fan, but Southern Railroad 4501 is my favorite steamer of all time though. I love your picture of Pere Marquette 1225, and I obviously love 765 too.
Haha, I’m a southerner, I’m not a country boy, but I’m not a city boy either. I’m just kinda in between, but I’m not a big fan of grits myself. I eat them sometimes.
Thanks everyone. Thank you VERY much!!![bow]
Thanks. I guess that’s one of my problems. I try to impress everybody, but I guess that don’t work.
its not that is doesnt work, its more, that it isnt needed.